There's been lots of talking, some tears and some problem solving.
Today we made the decision to take a break from it all and to run away.
We drove all the way to another town. We visited op shops and drank coffee and juice and peppermint tea. We bought textas and coloured by numbers. We talked about the crappy stuff and felt better about it. We breathed different air. We looked in shops and bumped into friends and were surprised to see some of my crocheted floral brooches from long ago in a gorgeous shop. We bought supplies for camp, for the farm and for dinner and some Lego as a present for the sisters. We walked holding hands, squeezing hands and played that pass the pulse game.
On the way home it poured with rain and we didn't talk but we sang along to a CD.
We came home feeling stronger and happier.
I need to remember to spend time one on one with my girls more often and not just wait until things go bad. But when things are a bit crappy sometimes a break from it is the best medicine of all.
I think we'll both sleep well tonight.